feels kind of good to be creating again
as I an art major I am essentially trained for nothing in this life and have no real applicable skills that can get me anywhere either
I just want to pack up all my shit, run away to the sea and never come back
possibly the sweetest thing ever said to me given the context
high end make up is my weakness
give me love
I can feel myself drifting further and further away and it scares the hell out of me
and all is right in the fucked up world of mine
Seriously why do I bother even applying to these jobs on the company’s websites or through job boards when I know that my resume will never been seen by a pair of human eyes and for the most part, they’re all interviewing candidates that they already have in mind and that the job postings are just postings for HR formalities?
This is all a bunch of fucking bullshit.
the sea calls to me like no other
I need a vacation from life
I really would like to know where I go wrong when it comes to guys. All of them seem really keen at first and then something happens and then suddenly they stop talking to me or ignore me all together. I’m examining myself in every situation that’s happened trying to figure out what the fuck I’m doing wrong that causes them to a pull a 360 on me.
but then I reconsider and think this is the universe’s way of punishing me for the things that I do that I know I shouldn’t be doing but continue to do anyway because it’s easier to float through life that way.
can I please just go drown myself in the shower now?